Do you ever when you're all alone get the overwhelming feeling of sadness and just feel like laying on the floor, curling into a ball, and crying and not stopping? Or that no one knows how you're really feeling because you put on a brave face and smile and no one is of the wiser. Or that you could leave the room and no one would notice, because you're so quiet to begin with or that you just haven't left enough of an impression on them for them to notice when you're gone. Sometimes that everything is just so overwhelming that you feel like you're drowning and you can't tell which way is up anymore and there is no helping hand in sight because they have all disappeared, or they were never there in the first place. Or that your only real, true friend is the stuffed animal that you've had since you were a baby and that they are the only one who truly understands you even when people claim to know you better than you know yourself and we all know that that is total bs. And sometimes you wish your life was a movie and that at the end all the problems and heartache and obstacles would have been dealt with and you'd get to ride off into the sunset with your true love and not have an more worries. To bad that doesn't happen in real life. I mean don't get me wrong I am a diehard hopeless romantic, but no one's ever give me that look that all girls crave. The look a guy gives a girl when she's the only one on his mind, his whole world, the one he would do absolutely anything for. Maybe that's why I read so much, and write where I'm in complete control, because I have yet to have that experience.